WELCOME TO MY
11/5 – 11/11
Hahahaha! Alright, so my heart isn’t completely cold. But it’s pretty damned close maybe. That hateful little voice (you know the one. We all have it) has been popping up more frequently lately and I’ve been feeling much less sympathetic and empathetic towards others. No bueno. No bueno indeed. Towards the very end of the week I took a chakra test to see how balanced all my chakras were. I’m actually thinking maybe I should take one at the end of each week to assess myself. Why I haven’t thought of this before I don’t know, but I think it’s probably a grand idea. Now what it showed was the 2 upper and 2 lower chakras were a little low but not so low as to be concerning. Could use a slight tune up. Manipura was shining like the gem it is, and was actually a little overstimulated. But the most noteworthy thing was how absolutely under stimulated my heart chakra was. It was a little sad actually. I knew it was low. I had a little stressful happening during the week and it really brought out the negative hateful self-talk, so I wasn’t surprised it was low. I was surprised it was that low. Of course, this was just some internet test, so I’m taking it with a grain of salt. The “cure” must be some good hard Manipura work. And so I begin…
What have I got planned for this week? Any fun little surprises in store? Anything different for raising the energy of the chakra?
Anahata inspired yoga everyday. Yoga 5x at a yoga studio.
Anahata inspired meditation everyday, including nature and tea yoga.
A bath, hot tea, podcasts, books. This chakra is self love and I am going to be fitting in as many fitting activities as I can.
I went to 3 yoga classes last week and am loving practicing in person with a teacher. And the other people too I guess? Mainly the teacher, tho. Everybody teaches differently and brings something special to the table, I love experiencing different teachers and styles. Since my Manipura was so strong, I went ahead and signed up for a new student special at Kindness Yoga, get a chance to experience different teachers and different styles and classes. I’ve already signed up for a couple classes, I can’t wait to go to them! I think that’ll help stimulate my heart chakra as well. On top of that I’ll be doing an Anahata inspired yoga practice everyday.
Meditation I want to switch up just a little. I definitely want to switch up how and where I’m meditating. I want to get outside, spend some time in nature soaking up the clean, fresh air. Maybe I’ll give walking meditation a try. I also found a little bit about meditating with tea and though “oh my yes. Now that is the meditation for me!” Gonna give that a shot as well. And then I’m just going to continue with the whole do what feels right vibe, choose my meditation based on that.
Ah Anahata, that green glowing energy, right at the heart center. Love yourself and the love will spread to all those around you. But when that light is dim, the love won’t spread. Not to yourself, not to others. To bring that light the fire it needs, the warm comforting love spread around it, stoking it to the bright and energized love center it is, I’m going to be focused on anything self-care and anything that relaxes me and brings me happiness. Baths will be involved, walks, or being in nature. Book readins, tea drinkin, aromatherapy. All the self-care and love activities that pop into my mind I will be indulging.
I love myself. I love others. I love cats. I love solitude. I love rainy days and sunny days. Alright but let’s start with the self love first. Let’s get that shining bright. When anger and negative emotions crop up and that hateful voice starts whispering in my ear, bring the love to the table instead. Maybe I only love the way that bagel tasted for breakfast or that my favorite song played on the radio. Doesn’t matter what, just so long as that negative gets replaced with love.
I release resentments and grudges...
Nothing good comes from holding onto these emotions. I know this. You know this. The problem is I have a habit of doing it anyway. So I’ll be working on letting go of past hurts and wrongs, letting that darkness release it’s grip on my little heart.
I love myself for who I am...
The good, the bad, the lovely, the ugly. I love all parts of me. Or I’m supposed to. Does that always happen? No, of course not. But this affirmation should help me remember to love myself for myself and all that makes me, me.
Negative self talk, anger, sadness, stress, tinges of depression, my will-power. All these could be challenges working against me this week.
This chakra is low. Oh so low. And that’s prime time for all those little negative voices to start coming out and bringing it down even more. But with all the color, scent, food, yoga, mediation, etc., therapy that I’ll be doing, I’m hoping that that love will shine strong and bright and carry me through.
I have to figure out a good schedule. It’s dark at like 5 and it’s killing me. I get so damned tired and I have no energy to finish out the day. And that means I have no energy for the tasks I want to complete. I need to figure out a way to stay energized til at least a reasonable bedtime hour. Come on energy! Get your bones a-moving and help a girl out!
November came way too fast. Way, way too fast. And the end of the year will be here in the blink of an eye! Crazy, I say. Anyway, what have I got up my sleeve this week?
There they go. Numbers ticking up, a little closer to the end of the year. They didn’t rise as much as they could. I missed a day here and there and I’ve been really freaking bad about working in my bullet journal. But they’re going up regardless. And that feels good.